Work It

Last week I went to the gym to do my workout without my trainer and it was a bit daunting. He was there with another client and so as I began my workout I felt incredibly self-conscious, as if he would be judging my attempts. He and his client finished their sets before me and I wondered if I would be performing in tandem for the full workout. The thought did not thrill me. I headed over to the weights room and suffered a crisis halfway there, turning away and towards, weighing options with shame and desire. Finally, I stayed.